I’ve been procrastinating on everything. Ignoring things I want to get done. I find myself always thinking about those wasted times and imagining what I should’ve accomplished. I realized the problem isn’t that I procrastinated, instead, is the way that I think. Don’t Think. Just Do.
Maybe I’m just being too harsh on myself. Always telling myself I should’ve done this or that. Feeling anxious if I didn’t do or create anything during my day off. No matter what I’m doing, I am never satisfied with anything. “It could be better.”
Take this website, for instance, I couldn’t resist myself from messing around with some CSS here and there while I’m drafting a post. I’ve got distracted by other small things around but not focusing on the writing. I am dissatisfied with most things that I did.
Thing is, I ask myself have I ever been productive or spent meaningful time even if I focused. Ironically, the answer is no. I just have the urge to do things and think too much out of it. I will never get “satisfied”.
The things that I want to do will never get me an award. But I feel the obligation to not waste my time.
I don’t think I’ve ever done anything worth mentioning in my entire life.
I wrote this “Sometimes, doing anything is better than doing nothing.” when I created this site. I’m contradicting myself.
I think it’s time to re-watch The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, again.
This is #Day10 of #100DaysToOffload.